There is really no point in stating my New Year’s Resolution this year because my resolution has already been 9 months in the making. Like millions of others on this gluttonous earth, it would be simple to say that my resolution for 2013 is to “lose weight.” If you have been reading my blog like the good friends I know you are, you know that I have a very well established plan on doing this and barring any unforeseen forks in the road that only God himself can muster, this WILL be the year I do indeed lose weight once my body inherits my Lap-Band. Now, technically, I still don’t know when this will happen and I have yet to see an official document stating that it is going to be a go, but in my very determined mind it is only a WHEN it happens and not an IF it happens.
2013 is also the year that I turn 35-years-old and in the past 1/3 of my life a few things have come to my attention. I will share those now, instead.
1. I hate clothing that has a print. I am okay with stripes, but a print really bothers me. I also only like very specific colors of clothing such as black, grey, red, blue, and green. I am fine wearing seasonal themed clothing or colors on the specific day in which that clothing is called for because sometimes when you are a mom, and especially if you are a teacher, you do that shit for kids.
2. I am coming to terms with the fact that no matter how old I am I will continue to have long, black, one –length hair with no bangs, that is worn in a messy bun except for the once per quarter that it is blown strait for various occasions. These occasions may include but are not limited to weddings, job interviews, family photo shoots, and funerals. I therefore will not pressure myself to consider making a change over the next 12 months simply because I think it’s “time.”
3. I will no longer put food into only two categories.
A. Foods that I will eat.
This is one (of many) reasons I have continued to have a weight problem. There are many foods that I do not like but I continue to eat them because I can tolerate them enough to keep eating them. I will make a better effort to not ingest foods that I do not like just because they are there. Some examples are chicken broth soups, turkey and ham cold cuts, Asiago cheese bagels, salted peanuts, and Baconnaise sandwich spread (trust me on this one).
4. I will not secretly worry that I have a strange obsession because I chose to dress my daughter like she is my American Girl Doll that I never had. I don’t care how ridiculous the huge ass bows look on her head. She is beautiful beyond words to me at a time when I am not and I would put her in a display case if I could to keep her precious and safe and pretty. This momentum will only continue to grow throughout the New Year, or until she starts refusing the bows at which time I will die a little inside.
5. I will continue to be my son’s best and worst fan, at a time when he is trying his independence. I will be up his ass at all times to keep him in line, will have eyes installed behind my back, and will shoot him down myself when he gets crazy. I will also continue to love every inch of my first baby, shout the loudest at soccer games while wearing as many soccer ball themed clothing materials as possible, and secretly brag about how he’s the smartest second grader this side of Chicago (well…one of them for sure anyways!)
6. I will continue to adore my husband in every way I possibly can. Very few things bring me greater happiness in this life.
7. Every day I will say a prayer and keep perspective in this bat-shit crazy world. This will include everything from the insanely trivial (it’s okay that my daughter and I spilled red glitter nail polish on the family room carpet, we were planning to and have money to replace it anyways) to the insanely unjust (I can work through my child’s rude back-talking, they came home to me alive from school today.) Because, after all, at the end of the day it’s always about perspective.
And last but never least…
8. KEEP WRITING!!! Keep reading, keep dreaming, keep reaching, keep inspiring, keep motivating, and keep sharing my story. If only one person reads this blog and is inspired to make a life change as I have, in any regards, I will be humbled. If no one does, I will still be heard.
Happy New Year to all of my family and friends, old and new.