Yesterday was the big day. It is still so surreal to me that I now have an implant in my stomach, and I’m not gonna lie, I am continuously thinking, WHAT DID I DO??
Then I remind myself that I waited one year for this. I remind myself that during that year while I took too far advantage of overeating and fast food stops, I was miserable with my ugly plus-size fashions and body size that made life so uncomfortable. Yes…this is what I have been waiting for.
Yesterday went pretty smoothly. They had a hard time getting my IV in because I was so dehydrated, but all the needle sticks didn’t bother me, the whole experience as a whole was what was almost too much to bear. My first real put-to-sleep surgery and it was an elective one no less. Luckily, I only had one crying spell and it’s always difficult to tell the nurses that I am not in pain, that I have anxiety, but once I got held back together I was good to go.
After waking up from surgery I had a lot of sleepiness and nausea during the first day. Today, my abdomen is swollen and sore, but I haven’t had any real pain. Today I am supposed to walk the halls and hopefully will be going home later tonight, so we’ll see.
I am also crazily overwhelmed by all of the well wishes and prayers that have outpoured from my facebook page and phone texts. We take advantage sometimes all the real friendships we have when it seems like we are only surrounded by web-friends. It is humbling how people really are there for you when you need them.
No turning back now!